96.8 lbs

I am so glad that this weekend is almost over. Last night though I thought I did really well. I only had a small portion of dinner and two bites of dessert. I weigh in today at 96.8! So my BMI is now 18.3 which is great. I'm now is the "underweight" category which is cool. I am proud of the amount that I have lost and I hope that I can continue to lose more and more.

Tonight I am going to my bf's brother and sister in laws for dinner. Not looking forward to it at all. She is always pushing everyone to eat and it drives me insane and I kind of hate her. But hopefully the evening will just go really fast and then I cant start this new week and get back to normal again. I miss my weekly routine of hardly eating anything and being at work where my bf can't bother me about eating.

He has started to watch me a bit more now like last night when I had hardly anything on my plate I kept seeing him glance over at my plate. In bed now he also rubs my hip bone and I know he wants to say something but he doesn't. I am really glad he won't say anything. I hate talking about it with him. He once found a journal I kept with thin pictures and my progress. I was so embarrassed and humiliated that he looked through it. I had thrown it in the garbage because I wanted to get better. I didn't want to think about food every day anymore and obsess about calories. I broke my scale and was ready to get better. But then I started therapy and told my therapist about having problems with me ED and then since then I haven't been able to stop losing weight again.

I love being able to fit in my skinny jeans better and an old pair of jeans that used to be tight are now lose around the tops which is so great! I can see my bones on my back when I lean over now and when I raise my arms in the air I see all my ribs and I have a bit of a gap now between my thighs which I love. Just have to keep going now and stay motivated. I don't even ever feel like eating now. I don't crave food at all.

Got to go now to get ready for dinner number two :(

Wish me luck...

<3